Good God. Why do I drink? Why do I smoke? I really don’t know.

Sometimes… the lie hurts less than the truth. Things happened to fast, too blurry… yet I cannot forgive myself for letting someone else take responsibility for a few minutes. Never again… never again will I leave your side. I’m so damn sorry… I hope you are alright.

Definitely, Maybe is a romantic comedy about William Hayes, played by Ryan Reynolds, and his relationships with 3 very different women, Emily - the high school sweet heart, Summer - A high flying, ambitious Journalist, April - A free spirited idealistic girl. The movie follow his story as he narrates to his 11 year old daughter Maya how he met each of them and how their relationships developed and crumbled. It is a very sweet story and hilarious when Will tries to PG the story while Maya tries to guess which of his girl friends ended up being her mum(Will changes the names of all the girls). This is definitely a great date movie to catch(no pun intended).

April: You and me, it’d kinda be like cats and dogs.
Will Hayes: Oil and water.
April: Sand paper and bare ass.
Will Hayes: That’s gross.

i found an Emily and a Summer now all I need to do is find my April.

Is it so hard to trust people around you? Are they worth that trust? I still stubbornly cling on to the notion that my friends are innately good… There are definitely characters and moments of selfishness but ultimately these are people worth caring for, worth fighting for…

I have done much to try and build and maintain trust in all my relationships. With some it is easier because they are willing to allow that trust to permeate our relationship as friends, depending on the other person when you need to cements the faith you have in the friendship.

I find it very ironic that the last post I made was also about friendship and how I was satisfied with it. Maybe I too damn naive and optimistic, but hell… I’m never giving up.

I wish for nothing more than what I have now. Friends… People I trust, people who I can depend on without fear. People I can spend hours on end with.

*random*

I’ve re-looked at how I view relationships and honestly, I’ll just wait for the right person and the right time. Even if it means almost an eternity(for that is what a few years can seem like).

Whatever you do
I’ll be two steps behind you
Wherever you go
and I’ll be there to remind you
that it only takes a minute of your precious time
to turn around and I’ll be two steps behind.