I don’t know why but I suddenly feel lonely. Just…. Lonely.

Just for you. Baby emma

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So it is a proven fact that the more I blog the more I’m supposed to be studying. This Discrete math shit actually applies.

s = is studying
b = is blogging

b -> ~s
~s -> fucked

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This horridly hot weather is great for running and nothing much else in my opinion. It’s oppressive and totally unproductive to try and drill logic into my brain when my body is crying from the heat. Procrastination has always been the better part of me… So here I am (rock you like a hurricane), once again attempting to be productive.

from xkcd

Oh… I found a friend in you…

Song For A Friend - Jason Mraz

You know we’ll got a lot to go around
I’ll be your friend
Your other brother
Another love to come and comfort you
And I’ll keep reminding
If it’s the only thing I ever do

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I can’t remember the last time I celebrated CNY, the only clear memory I have was of ORD-ing in the midst of the celebrations Feb 6 2008…

Running away(Acoustic) - Hoobastank

I don’t know…

Saul was a man who would have given his life to save the men and women he had sworn to protect. He didn’t give up hope in the insurgency. No matter how bleak or impossible the odds were. He stood strong and rallied everyone.

When he lost Ellen, he was so broken that he could not even smile. But he carried on with his duties. A soldier. A warrior. Without hope…

I need to overcome my allergy. Or I’ll never be able to sleep without dreaming.

No more. No more.

So very drained. Question. Will you still be using facebook at 40?

I’ve never felt so alone. This cafe doesn’t smell the same. The faded little flags a testiment to how long I’ve been away. Unfamiliar grey faces against a grey sky morning.

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I’m reaching into this dark hole trying to find hope. Desperately reaching past the point of no return. The question is when I will fall?

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The barker cafe’s iced latte sucks. Bad.

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The radio plays the perfect song to describe my thoughts.

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Thank you Minty for being so honest with me and setting me straight. I feel so much better now =)

… with being entirely sincere and truthful is that I feel desperate. And it shows when I make mistakes. What I did was entirely emotional. Everything I said came from the heart. Now that logic kicks in after I’ve calmed down I realise I didn’t handle it very well.. But I know, I learn and it won’t happen again.

Tushay.